WORDS OF A HERETIC

Walking barefoot on a deserted beach

The restless oceans roars

The cool sea breeze is no longer soothing

Each grain of sand I step on

Leaves me gritty with dissatisfaction

Dissatisfaction with life!

Dissatisfaction with existence itself!

Loneliness now; once solitude

Now an unbearable burden!

In this journey of life

I have walked too far away!

Too far away from the face of normality! 

Through roads not traveled by

Through mountains and valleys

To a jungle of thoughts and insight

I now stand  here alone!  

No one else can see my unprecedented plight!

No one else can feel; no one else can understand!

The view from my pointless eyes!

Too mystical for the scientific

Too scientific for the mystical

Too spiritual for the atheist

Too blasphemous for the pious

Too nihilistic; too eternal

Too cynical! Too philosophical!   

My words resonate as a mere heretic!  

Can’t anyone see the common face of reality?

Can’t anyone see the beauty of its sempiternal smile?

In this journey, to the peak of understanding

With no one to speak the same language

With no one to share the same cup of tea

Caught up in a forest of feelings

Oh! How long can I walk alone in silence? 

BRIDAL VEIL

Dangling heavy earrings!

A necklace so new!

Cheeks rosy when you blush

As you smile in secrecy

The mesmerizing twinkle in your eyes

Rich lips of colour and form

All of these ; still shying away behind your bridal veil

Oh pretty lady!

Let the wedding bells ring!

JUST SO

Think!

And things are just so!

Don’t think!

And things are just so!

Things or no nothings!

It’s just; just so! 

NOTHING AS IT SEEMS

The evening sky is warm

Darkness is cold and near

Wandering thoughts and feelings!  

Nothing is as it seems! 

ROSES AND LILIES

A lump of flesh; a heap of bones

Falling down now with a final thump

As blood embraces the evening soil

Let the roses and lilies sprout

TWO WORDS

Coming and going!

Just two words!

Entangled by them

The “I” struggles on!

SIMPLE LIFE

 

Now you see me

Now you don’t

Life is simple

Keep it so!

STILL AFLOAT

Neither here; neither there

My soul is restless; my mind wanders

 Mighty Passion has now toppled my boat

Paddling desperately in the battling waves

And breathlessly gasping for air

I wonder in astonishment!

 What is that still keeps me afloat? 

HIDDEN BATTLES

Each man for himself!

Battling a different beast

Different swords

Different wounds  

A hidden battle within 

You know nothing about!

So dear friend! The heretic says! 

Be kind!! 

LAST CRY

Singing softly by the setting sun 

As the sword of death slits my throat

Even my last cry!

Falls in perfect tune!

Oh! How perfect is this music of life

A STORY

A story now! Once true!

You and I

Together then!

Now no more!

WINGS OF HOPE

Every step is the last one

Every step is new

Walking each step! Being mindful!  

Let my wings of hope burn away!  

BLUE AGONY

The sky is weeping

My heart is stretched!

Blue and beating!

Pumping only agony!

Oh! Why does life still go on? 

CHEMICAL DOWNPOUR

The sky is a clogged drain

The earth; a mere pile of trash

Clouds of scum and sewage

Trickle down

Trickle down as filth and rain 

Hand in hand in this chemical down pour

Strolling along and evading puddles

Oh careless earthlings!

Can an umbrella protect your souls? 

ROOSTER'S CROW

Peter didn't you know

The rooster will crow! 

Not once; not twice

 To err! But thrice!

Peter didn't you realize

This day will come!

Knowing your weakness

Shouldn't you have been more mindful?

The Gracious lord may have forgiven you

But!  Oh Peter the Apostle!

Can you ever forgive yourself!

CURLY TWIRLS AND ANKLETS

The sound of your anklets is soothing music!  

A glimpse of your smile; is the touch heaven on earth

Your veiled face; your curly twirls!

A divine embodiment of beauty!

And even by chance!

If our glances meet! 

Oh! What else can be the bliss of enlightenment!

CRAVING CORPSE

Waiting to become ashes

My burning corpse craves!

Caught within the ravaging flames of desire

 Lust, anger and hate!

Oh! Friendly undertaker

 Incinerate my soul too! 

CAGE OF ILLUSIONS

My heart is a fluttering bird

Once yearning to fly away

Seduced by this colourful cage of illusions  

Oh! How long will it stay?  

ETERNAL ANSWER

The one who asks; does not know!  

He is the answer!  

He is the seeker; he is the sought

Unaware; caught up in the blazing flames

The anger rages on; and passion surges

Smoke still blinds my eyes!

Oh seeking soul!

Leave behind the worldly questions that you seek!

For, you are the eternal answer!

The answer that you have been always looking for!

SOLITARY DISTRESS

Awakened by distress

Deserted by sleep

The heart is a roaring ocean

The mind is a raging storm

You! My only respite  

Oh Solitude!

 You too do not flee!

MYSTERIOUS LIFE

Delicate and evanescent

The mesmeric flower withers away

Yet, growing each moment

Lush green and exuberant

The beauty of the garden gently flourishes 

Oh Mysterious life!  

Will you not share your secrets with me? 

WORN OUT DONKEY

The burden of existence is overwhelming

This donkey is wary of its weight

My hooves are worn out

And my loose teeth rattle

My legs too will soon give away

Oh! How much longer will my master lead me this way?  

MY BELOVED HAS LEFT

Adornments and decorations still hang

Even as the wedding bells keep silent

Running amok! Wailing! Seeking!

Finally I now realize

My beloved has left!

Vows to make and promises to keep

A new life we imagined!

But sadly now! Alas!

Leaving nothing but her absence

My beloved has left!   

No more business for me here now

No more wishes to make

No more promises to keep

Oh! Lonesome heart! 

Whither is the burial ground!

DEAD END

It’s a dead end

This journey, this path!

It’s all a dead end!

All that you hope

All that you achieve

All that you dream

All of this flamboyant life  

In the end!  

It is all just only a dead end! 

SEEDLESS SELF

The seed is the same as the flower

Birth is the same as death

Happiness is nothing but sorrow

And creation is just annihilation

In this world of the inseparable

The heretic says!

Why cling on to illusion of self? 

THE MIDDLE PATH

Attachment idealizes! 

Hatred demonizes!

Somewhere in between

Covered by the fallen leaves

The lonesome road meanders !  

HOUSE OF MY MASTER

Mystical colours; magical music

Bliss in every form and hue

Fragrance of happiness in the enchanted air!

Welcome! Oh friend!

For, this is the house of my master!

Everyone is equal here! 

And each one is a precious guest!

Overflowing in his divine Love!

All are dancing here!  

Dancing in this house of glory

In this blissful house!

There is no more death; no more salvation

Just colour and music!

No fear; no frustration

In this house of my master

There is only colour and music!

Dancing to the mystical music

Intoxicated on Love

I have lost my identity

I have truly lost my self!

Lost myself;   in this colour and music!

 Oh faithful friend !

You too must come; to this colour and music

You too, must lose your self

Oh! Loving friend!

Welcome home to this house of my master!

WAITING FOR YOUR ARRIVAL

The morning is quiet

The sky in blue

Waiting for your arrival

Can my mind be free?

SHATTERED VASE

The beauty of the vase lies shattered  

Falling helplessly to the cold marble floor 

The colourful flowers lie scattered

And the sweet fragrance still lingers in the air

As the vanity and pride in me humbly vanish

And the shell of conceit is cracked open  

Oh! Potter of the wheel of life!

Let the miracle of your Love set me free

KEY PARADOX

Stuck in a key chain forever

Cut out for locking for life

I am a key

I can only set free! 

Opening up

Desires and treasures

 From the lock that only fits

Yet bound and bunched up with the other keys

Oh! What a helpless life! 

SELF LESS BUTTERFLY

A long slumber it has been

Chained to my own secretions!  

A cocoon of habits!

A pupa of conditioning!

But now I've finally blossomed!

My shell of conceit has been shed 

And colours of love fill my new form

My wings are crisp and new

And nectar and pollen fill the morning air

In this blissful new life of enlightenment

Let me fly away to freedom!

EMU

The sky is vast and endless

The heart is lonely

As a wingless bird set free

Whither can I fly?

CURLY TWIRLS

Curly twirls; a resplendent smile

More than a pretty face

A kind heart and a wise mind

So close; so hard to part

Beauty or my beloved

No mirror can say!

LAILA'S EYES

Laila!  Oh Laila !

Oh!  You have such beautiful eyes!

Which one of them is prettier 

Can any foolish lover say?

One is filled with beauty

 The other is pretty and wise

Which one is which?

Only the wise man can say! 

Inseparable; yet separate

A pretty nose; a pretty face

Oh beautiful eyes of Laila!  

Which one of you will Majnun kiss?

PLASTIC BOMBER

Neither dead; neither alive!

Yet!

Gripped by fatal devotion!

Silently waiting for the moment!

My heart and timer both tick on!

Caught between an idea and a button

As I still say my last prayer

 The fate of the soulless hangs pointlessly with me!  

And finally! The moment of!

The deafening violence!

My heart explodes in evanescent bliss

And my mind evaporates

Scattering with it my love everlasting for you

Oh my Beloved!

With splattered brains and shredding plastic!

 I finally enter!

Enter into thy ever merciful gates of heaven! 

SEEKING YOU

Seeking you!

I have given up all my hope!

I have wandered enough

Now I have grown old

Oh! My Beloved

Let me now die in peace!

CRAZY LOVER

I am no Muslim, I’m no Buddhist

I’m no Christian; I am no Jew

Neither am I lost; nor have I found the truth

I’m Just a crazy lover

Seeking my beloved

I am in Love; that’s the only thing I know!  

All you faithful can fight over ideas

But dear friends

Just let me love in peace! 

GENTLE BREEZE

Oh!  Gentle breeze!  

Tell me who I am

In and out

You enter me

With every breath 

You fill me!

You give me the gift of life!

Tell me, Oh gentle friend!

  

Sans body; sans soul!

Who am I?

PSYCHEDELIA

Rabbit is a habit!

Seaweed is blue!

The secrets of the shadow! 

Is light green or true?  

COME ASHORE

Sweetest smile; bedazzling eyes

Yet miles away from my heart

Oh my beloved!

Will you ever know the gripping pain?

 Hidden deep within this lover’s heart!  

As silent tears flow

And the waves of the unfettered ocean

Strikes the broken hearted shore

The Ocean weeps; the earth remains silent

Oh my beloved!   Bedazzling and sweet!

Will you come ashore to me? 

BUTTERFLY BY NIGHT

The butterfly is free

The cocoon is empty

Sky is the only limit

But as darkness grows

Beware!

The long night is near!   

BLINDMAN BY THE SUNSET

The sun sets over the green hill

The crimson evening is over

As the darkness of the black night begins

Alone in a corner

The blind man sings in bliss!

MRITHYU

Every moment of my life; you are so near!  

Each and every moment!

 I even feel you breathing!

I reach out to you, to hold you in my arms

But each time you cleverly slip away

Oh Final unifier of all

Why do you keep evading me?

Friends we are from birth

Why then keep secrets from me

Hand in hand; as we stroll together

Through gardens and ravines

Time has moved us even closer now

Oh Dear friend! This journey of life is getting so tiresome

And I’m wary of your game of hide and seek

Oh!  Great friend Mrithyu (Death)

Take me home with you! 

LINGERING MUSIC

The strings of my harp are broken

The drummers are nowhere to be found

The singers have all run away

But tell me oh Mind! 

Just sitting in silence by the cold stone wall

Why does music still linger in my ears ?  

LET GO

The black hole of craving!

The illusion understanding!

The silence of suffering!

The anger of denial!

Oh! Just let go!  

WOUNDED SOUL

In this cloudless sky of silence

Words have a no more meaning

My hands shiver!

My eyes are tearing up!

It’s been a long time!

My mouth is parched up and dry

As the moonlight creeps up behind the hills of sorrow

As even darkness wears a brighter face

Will the shadow of my wounded soul

Smile behind the veil of hope?

SERPENT WITHIN

Wordless cravings , writhing within!

Urging actions, forbidden!

Green was the apple; when eve had bitten!

Heed not oh soul; to the serpent within!