WORDS OF A HERETIC

Walking barefoot on a deserted beach

The restless oceans roars

The cool sea breeze is no longer soothing

Each grain of sand I step on

Leaves me gritty with dissatisfaction

Dissatisfaction with life!

Dissatisfaction with existence itself!

Loneliness now; once solitude

Now an unbearable burden!

In this journey of life

I have walked too far away!

Too far away from the face of normality! 

Through roads not traveled by

Through mountains and valleys

To a jungle of thoughts and insight

I now stand  here alone!  

No one else can see my unprecedented plight!

No one else can feel; no one else can understand!

The view from my pointless eyes!

Too mystical for the scientific

Too scientific for the mystical

Too spiritual for the atheist

Too blasphemous for the pious

Too nihilistic; too eternal

Too cynical! Too philosophical!   

My words resonate as a mere heretic!  

Can’t anyone see the common face of reality?

Can’t anyone see the beauty of its sempiternal smile?

In this journey, to the peak of understanding

With no one to speak the same language

With no one to share the same cup of tea

Caught up in a forest of feelings

Oh! How long can I walk alone in silence? 

SOLITARY DISTRESS

Awakened by distress

Deserted by sleep

The heart is a roaring ocean

The mind is a raging storm

You! My only respite  

Oh Solitude!

 You too do not flee!

MY BELOVED HAS LEFT

Adornments and decorations still hang

Even as the wedding bells keep silent

Running amok! Wailing! Seeking!

Finally I now realize

My beloved has left!

Vows to make and promises to keep

A new life we imagined!

But sadly now! Alas!

Leaving nothing but her absence

My beloved has left!   

No more business for me here now

No more wishes to make

No more promises to keep

Oh! Lonesome heart! 

Whither is the burial ground!

ROCKING CHAIR

The window is shut and the door bolted

Crumpled papers lie scattered by the desk  

Pondering over pointless existence

 Restless, sways my aimless mind

As I a sit rocking in this lonesome chair ! 

STARLESS NIGHT

Another starless night

Long dark and lonely

Staring blankly back into my eyes

Restless as I roll in anticipation

For death, dawn; or either

Oh let one of these

Stop this pointless ticking clock!

YELLOW STREET LIGHT

Standing tall in the frosty corner

yellow and gleaming in the morning fog

Not noticed; not worried about

Yet lighting up; for its own part

The lonesome street light glows 

WINDOW OF MEMORIES

Through the window of hope, we once peered together!

But in the shadow  of death , I tread alone now!

Colorful rainbows and sunny days, we imagined our future!

But did we imagine the sorrow of  today!

Together we were, as we held hands in every  stormy weather!

But now, drenched and empty handed,  I stand  here alone in the  falling rain!

My hopeless soul yearns for those lost memories!

But what else do they bring, but pain!

Oh beloved of my life! How  much longer must this lonesome journey last ?